Monday, October 25, 2010

Ushering Fall

tops of the trees
frozen ground
spreading leafs
windy sound

work all day
prep for night
still the sun
is in sight

Noses red
eyes still blue
icy friends
familiar, but new

excited air
reap the sown
fashion flair
feeding loan


piece together
once again
birds of a feather
at rest again

white pearls found
every face
love marks mound
warm embrace

the new season
finding care
brand new reason
to know he's there
-me

-some one else on the internet

Friday, September 17, 2010

A New Not Hate

When most of us are first exposed to modern art we may think to ourselves, “It’s a box,” or, “This canvas is splattered with paint, how in the world did it end up in a world class museum?” We are therefore confused and maybe even slightly disappointed. Thoughts such as, “I could have done this in like thirty seconds when I was five years old” come into play. I myself am guilty of voicing such thoughts on a number of occasions. Recently I had the opportunity to prove myself to world of modern art by trying my hand at a Rothko. It seemed elementary: create a background and add some rounded boxes. This is when I first caught a glimpse of the complexity in the trial that lay ahead. What colors was I to use? How big was I to make each box? I hardly knew what brush to use. I began mixing colors, drawing lines, and digging in my box for a decent brush. Finally I dipped my deprived bush into the purple/black/red paint and smeared it onto the white canvas. I could not help but let out an outburst. It had not been even one second and I already ruined the project. There was nothing I could do to fix it, so I preceded. I continued on in this fashion; each brushstroke accompanied by a cry of pain in seeing my masterpiece go to its doom. No matter how hard I tried, not one movement of my wrist came out how I planed. I came to the conclusion early on that I could not have done this painting when I was five and now, 13 years later, I was struggling. Did I enjoy this experience? I answer with a resounding, “absolutely!” Did I prove my self to the modern world? Yes. That is, I proved my self to be very much wrong. The modern paintings that I was once to critical of I now found meaning. I came to the realization that the original painters had true skill in creating a painting to show passion, pain, joy, peace, and many other emotions in a few boxes or lines. So, it may be true that that a person could paint lines and boxes similar to the originals. However, the difference is that they were not the first to express them selves in this way as the masters did. They defined new lines, stepped out of bounds and created depth in simplicity, and that is truly amazing.
Want to see my masterpeice? guess which one is mine and which one is Rothkos :)



Sunday, September 12, 2010

Either The Rain on Your Parade or Icing on the Cake

I Sometimes wish that I can sleep all day instead of go to school. so... I compromise. I go to school and sleep through all of my classes :) Another short term win for me, long term loss. The blissfulness that comes with napping is swept away as soon as I remember that I actually have to get good grades in my classes. sigh. Life is hard. I guess that even though taking a break seems rewarding right now, a few years down the road, I would wish that I had worked harder. So it is time to refocus and stop being so lazy, which means I have to get rid of something.
School: has to stay, plus that would defeat the purpose.
Church: not even debatable
Social life: could go out the window... along with it would go any chance I have of not going completely loco.
Family time: Already lacking. Plus, they are my support system; with out them I would fall. Its a keeper
Me time: Already gone and has been gone for a while.
Sleep: ha ha not happening. Have you been round me while I am tired. Yeah, it a mess -- sleep stays
Work: non-existent
Blogging and Facebook:... hmmm...I think I found my solution.
So, to the thousands of people who love to read my punctuation deprived blogs, this could be the last one for a while. I am sorry but this is the only way. However, most likely no one reads my blog anyway, so this is not going to rain on any ones parade, yay. I would not even be mildly surprised if this post just made your day because it gives you an excuse to go without the pain staking moments of reading my blog posts with the side effect of guilt eliminated. Okay that was a lie. I would be slightly shocked and a tad-bit thrilled because that would mean that someone actually reads the junk I put on here, and that would make my heart happy.
(THIS IS A PICTURE OF A WALL THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY POST, HOWEVER, IF YOU CAN TELL ME WHERE I TOOK THIS PICTURE AT, THEN YOU SHALL RECEIVE OPTIMAL BONUS POINTS)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Become

I had to read this for my Humanities class and I really enjoyed it, I hope you will too. I DID NOT WRITE THIS
My Graduation Speech
By Neil Postman
Having sat through two dozen or so graduation speeches, I have naturally wondered why they are so often so bad.
One reason, of course, is that the speakers are chosen for their eminence in some field, and not because they are either competent speakers or gifted writers. Another reason is that the audience is eager to be done with all ceremony so that it can proceed to some serious reveling. Thus any speech longer than, say, fifteen minutes will seem tedious, if not entirely pointless. There are other reasons as well, including the difficulty of saying something inspirational without being banal. Here I try my hand at writing a graduation speech, and not merely to discover if I can conquer the form. This is precisely what I would like to say to young people if I had their attention for a few minutes. If you think my graduation speech is good, I hereby grant you permission to use it, without further approval from or.

credit to me, should you be in an appropriate situation.
Members of the faculty, parents, guests, and graduates, have no fear. I am well aware that on a day of such high excitement, what you require, first and foremost, of any speaker is brevity. I shall not fail you in this respect. There are exactly eighty-five sentences in my speech, four of which you have just heard. It will take me about twelve minutes to speak all of them and I must tell you that such economy was not easy for me to arrange, because I have chosen as my topic the complex subject of your ancestors. Not, of course, your biological ancestors, about whom I know nothing, but your spiritual ancestors, about whom I know a little. To be specific, I want to tell you about two groups of people who lived many years ago but whose influence is still with us. They were very different from each other, representing opposite values and traditions. I think it is appropriate for you to be reminded of them on this day because, sooner than you know, you must align yourself with the spirit of one or the spirit of the other.
The first group lived about 2,500 years ago in the place which we now call Greece, in a city they called Athens. We do not know as much about their origins as we would like. But we do know a great deal about their accomplishments. They were, for example, the first people to develop a complete alphabet, and therefore they became the first truly literate population on earth. They invented the idea of political democracy, which they practiced with a vigor that puts us to shame. They invented what we call philosophy. And they also invented what we call logic and rhetoric. They came very close to inventing what we call science, and one of them—Democritus by name—conceived of the atomic theory of matter 2,300 years before it occurred to any modern scientist. They composed and sang epic poems of unsurpassed beauty and insight. And they wrote and performed plays that, almost three millennia later, still have the power to make audiences laugh and weep. They even invented what, today, we call the Olympics, and among their values none stood higher than that in all things one should strive for excellence. They believed in reason. They believed in beauty. They believed in moderation. And they invented the word and the idea which we know today as ecology. About 2,000 years ago, the vitality of their culture declined and these people began to disappear. But not what they had created. Their imagination, art, politics, literature, and language spread all over the world so that, today, it is hardly possible to speak on any subject without repeating what some Athenian said on the matter 2,500 years ago.
The second group of people lived in the place we now call Germany, and flourished about 1,700 years ago. We call them the Visigoths, and you may remember that your sixth or seventh-grade teacher mentioned them. They were spectacularly good horsemen, which is about the only pleasant thing history can say of them. They were marauders—ruthless and brutal. Their language lacked subtlety and depth. Their art was crude and even grotesque. They swept down through Europe destroying everything in their path, and they overran the Roman Empire. There was nothing a Visigoth liked better than to burn a book, desecrate a building, or smash a work of art. From the Visigoths, we have no poetry, no theater, no logic, no science, no humane politics. Like the Athenians, the Visigoths also disappeared, but not before they had ushered in the period known as the Dark Ages. It took Europe almost a thousand years to recover from the Visigoths.
Now, the point I want to make is that the Athenians and the Visigoths still survive, and they do so through us and the ways in which we conduct our lives. All around us—in this hall, in this community, in our city—there are people whose way of looking at the world reflects the way of the Athenians, and there are people whose way is the way of the Visigoths. I do not mean, of course, that our modern-day Athenians roam abstractedly through the streets reciting poetry and philosophy, or that the modern-day Visigoths are killers. I mean that to be an Athenian or a Visigoth is to organize your life around a set of values. An Athenian is an idea. And a Visigoth is an idea. Let me tell you briefly what these ideas consist of.
To be an Athenian is to hold knowledge and, especially the quest for knowledge in high esteem. To contemplate, to reason, to experiment, to question—these are, to an Athenian, the most exalted activities a person can perform. To a Visigoth, the quest for knowledge is useless unless it can help you to earn money or to gain power over other people. To be an Athenian is to cherish language because you believe it to be humankind’s most precious gift. In their use of language, Athenians strive for grace, precision, and variety. And they admire those who can achieve such skill. To a Visigoth, one word is as good as another, one sentence in distinguishable from another. A Visigoth’s language aspires to nothing higher than the cliché.
To be an Athenian is to understand that the thread which holds civilized society together is thin and vulnerable; therefore, Athenians place great value on tradition, social restraint, and continuity. To an Athenian, bad manners are acts of violence against the social order. The modern Visigoth cares very little about any of this. The Visigoths think of themselves as the center of the universe. Tradition exists for their own convenience, good manners are an affectation and a burden, and history is merely what is in yesterday’s newspaper.
To be an Athenian is to take an interest in public affairs and the improvement of public behavior. Indeed, the ancient Athenians had a word for people who did not. The word was idiotes, from which we get our word “idiot.” A modern Visigoth is interested only in his own affairs and has no sense of the meaning of community.
And, finally, to be an Athenian is to esteem the discipline, skill, and taste that are required to produce enduring art. Therefore, in approaching a work of art, Athenians prepare their imagination through learning and experience. To a Visigoth, there is no measure of artistic excellence except popularity. What catches the fancy of the multitude is good. No other standard is respected or even acknowledged by the Visigoth.
Now, it must be obvious what all of this has to do with you. Eventually, like the rest of us, you must be on one side or the other. You must be an Athenian or a Visigoth. Of course, it is much harder to be an Athenian, for you must learn how to be one, you must work at being one, whereas we are all, in a way, natural-born Visigoths. That is why there are so many more Visigoths than Athenians. And I must tell you that you do not become an Athenian merely by attending school or accumulating academic degrees. My father-in-law was one of the most committed Athenians I have ever known, and he spent his entire adult life working as a dress cutter on Seventh Avenue in New York City.
On the other hand, I know physicians, lawyers, and engineers who are Visigoths of unmistakable persuasion. And I must also tell you, as much in sorrow as in shame, that at some of our great universities, perhaps even this one, there are professors of whom we may fairly say they are closet Visigoths. And yet, you must not doubt for a moment that a school, after all, is essentially an Athenian idea. There is a direct link between the cultural achievements of Athens and what the faculty at this university is all about. I have no difficulty imagining that Plato, Aristotle, or Democritus would be quite at home in our class rooms. A Visigoth would merely scrawl obscenities on the wall.
And so, whether you were aware of it or not, the purpose of your having been at this university was to give you a glimpse of the Athenian way, to interest you in the Athenian way. We cannot know on this day how many of you will choose that way and how many will not. You are young and it is not given to us to see your future. But I will tell you this, with which I will close: I can wish for you no higher compliment than that in the future it will be reported that among your graduating class the Athenians mightily outnumbered the Visigoths.
Thank you, and congratulations.

Monday, August 16, 2010

A true story about Amber Finch as told by Rebma Hcnif

It was a warm summer night that marked the end of a day filled with activity and simple life pleasures. Amber could not help but smile; life seemed to be at its best. She was journeying in the general direction of home with three of her favorite companions. The four girls were anxiously engaged in a conversation filled with laughter and words of complete and total silliness. As Jaime, Chelsie, and Rebekah maintained their lively exchange, Amber, who was always sure to be fully aware of her surroundings, looked further on. When she discovered movement near the brush, her interest was sparked, and focus was turned to the mysterious figure that lingered ahead. Using most of the five scenes, (touch in this situation would not have been intelligent nor convenient to apply ) Amber soon learned what was approaching her and her three adorned cohorts; and when she did her world nearly crumbled to pieces. She felt her knees tremble and sweat drip from every pore on her face. Amber had heard of these occurrences but had never imagined that she would be faced with such a critical moment as this (actually, she day-dreamed of them quit often, it seemed like an adventure when she sat comfortably in her chair at school, but now that she was on the street with a leather-warring, shadow-covered stranger, saving the day with karate moves that she did not even know was not likely). The man came nearer and nearer gun in hand. Amber did not know what to do, there was no one to yell to for help, she had no mobile devices, and her dear friends were completely oblivious to the tragedy that was about to occur. Slowly, Amber walked to her fate with no knowledge of what the future held. Her head began to spin and her vision narrowed. Suddenly, the most peculiar thing happened, the man brought his handgun to his face and licked it. This confused Amber to the point where she halted her progression. Again, the man licked his gun. It was as if he was really enjoying it. Ambers friends hardly noticed Amber had fallen back. They were just about to cross paths with their doom, when finally the man stepped into the light and his true identity was made known. (at this point I am hesitant to continue in the story, for every time I am brought to remember this painful memory, a flood of embarrassment engulfs my soul and I simply must shake my head at myself). Most of what Amber had concurred about the man was correct; his gun, however, was not a gun at all but was in fact noting other than a vanilla ice cream cone. The end.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The Halloween Horror of a Fourth-Grade me

When I was in fourth grade my class was getting ready for our big Halloween presentation and we were supposed to be dressed as skeletons. We were told to wait patiently in our seats until it was our turn to have paper bones taped to us by some sixth graders. As I was waiting in my seat, I came to the painful realized that I had to go to the bathroom. My teacher said that I would have to wait until I had the Skeleton on before I could make a trip to the bathroom. I hated getting in trouble so I said no more and walked back to my seat. As time passed, the need to relieve myself got worse and worse until finally I was to the point of defiance; I was just going to have to disobey in order to keep my pants dry. I got up with determination. However, as soon as I did, my name was called indicating that it was my turn to go get out-fitted. I looked at the bathroom door, then door to the sixth graders, then back at the bathroom door. I thought I could make it if I tried really hard. Oh how I hated doing thing wrong. I turned from the bathroom and went to the room where the sixth graders were. I have tried for years to forget the next series of events. That poor sixth grade girl who was trying to help me, she had no idea that this was part of the assignment. I had an nearly completed skeleton when I could feel a sudden rush as if a dam broke and a flood was coming. I asked her to hurry, but to my dismay she just shook her head and continued to tape on my femur bone. At that point it was out of my control. I could not hold it any longer, and hold it I did not. As soon as I felt dripping down my leg, I ran to the bathroom and hid for almost half an hour until clean cloths arrived. I do not know what happened to the sixth grader, I never saw her again, nor the smelly spot on the library carpet. I did see my class, who all noticed that I had different pants on. They all knew why, and were more than happy to talk about it for the rest of the year.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Heads Up!

I have officially survived one whole week of school!!! so far it is just splendid! I really like the quick paced learning and it is really nice to only have to focus on two classes (English 150 and Physical Science 100). For English I have Debbie Harrison; I would definitely recommend her. So far she is phenomenal! For PS100 I have the funniest man that I have ever met. It was the first day of class. I had just miraculously survived my first ever college English class and now I was sitting in anticipation for Physical Science 100 to begin. My eyes were glued to the professor as he started class. Professor Allred looks like your typical science master, sort of like Einstein. His messy brown hair and gigantic glasses worked well with his happy smile and short body. Just seeing the professor made me relax. He stood in front of the class of 200 with a large stack of handouts. He scanned the room several times and announced, “I have a handout for you today, and I need to hand them out.” Suddenly he spoke with excitement, “I don’t get to do this very often.” He moved to one side of the room and stood at the head of the first row. “now,” he said, “I have chosen to hand this out in a similar fashion to how mother nature disperses her dandelion seeds.” We starred at our professor in confusion. His words, however, were soon made clear by his actions. With a large swinging motion and a warning of, “Heads up!” he threw the papers over the head of the students in the first section. Paper and laughter filled the air. Dr. Allred preceded to the next section as if this was routine. Paper again filled the large room as he distributed papers to the middle section, and again as he went to the third. After that, as if everything was normal, he began his lecture and we took notes. I was never nervous for PS 100 again.